the guy i wanted so badly in marching band for months just got a girlfriend. i waited MONTHS for him and she got him in 2 weeks. he gave me so much false hope and had me losing my mind. i see them all time at school talking and laughing and ive never seen him truly this happy. i really want to be happy for them but its hard, i wanted that to be me so so badly. and i wonder why it wasnt me. is it because of the age gap? because im a freshman and hes a junior? because im his sisters best friend? its so easy to say i hate him than accepting the fact it wasnt me. me and him are so similar. same humor, same personality and everything. i spent so long trying to get with him and over analyzing every little interaction and then she came along and now its over.