My parents dont respect me enough to form a connection with me. And its breaking my heart, i feel like I have to hurt just to gain their "love". Their love is very conditional, and it has done me more harm than good in the name of my benefit. It only takes a fucking attempt on my life to make them to "care." I once expressed that I felt neglected, and they were hurt and claimed they have given me everything they could offer. But when have they sat next to me, spend time with me without getting insulted or scolded? The most common thing I hear from my own father is; "Youre so annoying. Go away." Ive grown tired of blindly trusting them, because they're my parents. I'm supposed to trust in their guidance since they know more. They're controlling to over protective to not caring about me in general. I cant even form any form of relationship with them because theyre glued to their phones more than me. Do i need to act childish, to gain their affection?