Sorry God for losing trust in you I just feel so useless. No matter how much I pray inside of me in everything I do for you to give me strentgh and maybe some talent, or even common basic skill, I never get a response. I prayed for my nerves and no response, but thank God my family is safe. I just want to please them bexause I feel like Im if not the only then the most negative aspect. No matter how much I try to be creative and calm against my anger its so so much it blows up and it’s always for nothing. And I have no courage to work out either, It’s like I want to do so many thing but feel exhausted. I feel helpless despite so many people around me trying to push me. I tell myself I need to push harder, but whenever I try my emotions get all over the place. I’ll keep trying but I know I stress everyone out and if something bad happens out of my constant worry fear and discouragement to a loved one I’ll never get anywhere. I’ll never make them proud.