I know this is asshole behaviour but sometimes I pray I’ll get rewlly sick. It’d genuinely be the only thing to give me worth. I feel like I’m worth nothing. The only thing that’d cut off my nerves and give me will to move and take every other burden off of me is knowing I’d die maybe tomorrow. Why my best friend and not me? I deserve to fucking die. I’m no good in this world. I deserve this kind of slap NOT her God. Please tske her pain and give it to me.. and I won’t tell anyone until it really shows.
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