I need to learn to shut off my head, it hurts and it won’t stop. Every single fucking thing I do. There’s no ending it, it just keeps yelling at me and yelling at me, I’m disgusting and invalidating, I’m cruel and arrogant, I’m an attention whore and an entitled brat who doesn’t truly feel what I think I feel, That’s what I’ve been feeling, that’s what’s been repeating over and over in my head whenever I just want to catch a break. I don’t know what’s real anymore, I’m doing it all because I’m a fucking fraud, I’m tryna be “Edgy” or trying to send a stupid fake cry for help because I’m a manipulating, two faced bitch, And it won’t stop. It won’t stop telling me that, and I don’t know if I’m lying to myself or if I’m not lying to myself, nobody else knows I feel this way , and nobody else knows what I feel because they’re NOT me, and I don’t even feel like ME anymore, because I don’t even KNOW MYSELF. It’s like this enigma i can’t understand. But it’s ME, & it tells me I’m a sick fuck