My OCD isn’t excessive cleanliness. (Although I do have some compulsions I inherited from my ultra clean freak mother.) My OCD is checking every locked door at least 5 times or I will sit there all night straining my ear to make sure no one is breaking in. It’s checking under my bed every time I walk in my bedroom to make sure no one is there. Then I check my closets. Then I check under my desk. Then I do it all over because I didn’t justify every shadow and it didn’t feel quite right. It’s sitting there having horrific intrusive thoughts, and hyperventilating because I repeat a phrase over and over and each time I repeat the phrase I have to exhale a certain way. It’s only taking showers in pitch black because I feel like someone is watching me. It’s intently listening to every argument to ensure things don’t get too violent because I will have to call 911 if it does and if I’m not paying attention for the exact time I should call then it will be my fault they got hurt.Itwillgetbetter