Apparently men fear being humiliated, women fear being killed Is there something wrong with me? Am I a man deep down? I feel like a woman. But not a person. I feel like a soul. I don't care what happens to my body or my life. I just can't bear any more humiliation. I've been touched and I've been name-called. I know the first one should bother me more. But the second one bothers me far more. I feel somewhat flattered that someone actually even wanted to go near me, even though I didn't want them to. They still wanted to. So they're not totally repulsed by me. I know this isn't normal. I know this came from a place of deep self hatred and disgust and probably severe RSD. But I feel like feminists hate me and want me gone because of my mindset. When the only person that my mindset is hurting is myself. But as long as my ego and self image is protected, I'll survive. Criticism makes me not even want to survive. At least I'm aware of this now.