My life has been on a huge pause ever since I turned 15 and moved into a house in the middle of nowhere. Home school made things 10x worse I’m 20 and haven’t made a single acquaintance in my area. My life is embarrassing I don’t have friends no nothing except family members. On top of that my mother is slowly dying of cancer and refuses any sort of treatment I wake up hearing sounds of coughs wanting to go straight to bed. My father doesn’t leave the house bcs he works from home. I struggle landing on any sort of job and recently got ghosted from one after doing 2 shifts. I also experience insane FOMO so I daydream about a different life one where I never ended up homeschooling. Since I don’t have a job I’m basically the family’s carer making around 2 meals a day 7 days a week. I feel incredible jealousy how most people my age have experienced so much of life. I’m so sick and feel myself getting weaker and weaker everyday. Despite being a follower of God I’m full of hate I’m so lonely