i hate myself. I envy mia so much i want to be her. why cant i be as perfect as her? why cant i be as white as snow, skinny and petite like a model, effortlessly pretty, like her? I try so hard just to look perfect. shes such a good friend wehy do i hate her so much? i hope they breask up. i have no empathy tiowards anyone or myself which makes it worse.