I give up. Everyday I go to school, I get up, I ask myself "Do I want to go to school?" and the answer is always No. Why? Because I struggle there, I'm in advanced classes and I don't want to drop them out because I don't want to seem like an 'idiot' (no offense to those who take regular classes, this is just how my mind is). Yet, no matter how many times I try to drop out, my family always talks about my older siblings who "dropped" out. They have such high expectations of me so I don't want to disappoint them and flunk. I hate doing work at home because then I have to realize how many years I have to do this, then I have to get a job, pay taxes, and just live... How can I live a life like that? How can I live so miserably when I'm so happy right now? I used to adore being older but now, I want to kill myself. I try to play games to distract myself but I always have to go to school tomorrow. I hate this life, I hate this. Everybody tells me to stay in school but they don't get it...