when i leave this place they’ll say they miss me, then turn around and tell me how their lives aren’t stressful, how they have so much more money, and how quiet it is. All I wanted to do was be myself but they’re are the complete antithesis of who I want to be. I’m going to die if I stay here. I just don’t want to leave my sister, it’s not fair to her. Sometimes I wish they’d give up on us and I could adopt her, but I’m going to have to leave her behind. I’m sacrificing my future just so I can be close enough to come back in an emergency because I’m scared of them fucking up her mental health even more. She told me I’m the closest to a parent she’s got even though both of our parents are alive. I think the only thing they really care about is appearance. On the surface they make it look like we’re a great happy family but if we were I wouldn’t be bawling my eyes out on the floor right now. It just feels so incredibly unfair to anyone who’s not them. They’re both so self centered too.