I just don't know anymore. No matter what achievements I receive from academics, I just feel like I don't deserve it even though I work hard for it. All those late nights and pouring my time and all. Also at some point as a third year student, I couldn't admit to myself that I feel lonely as fuck. Everyone has their own circle which I tried joining and exploring but it doesn't seem to work at all. Sometimes I can't help it but wonder if I was really the problem... I just want a friend