i cant keep friends, not because they dont like me or anything but because i cant stop blocking them, avoiding them etc. god, i went homeschooled and blocked everyone for what, like for a moment i guess i feel some kind of relief? but then it really hits me. after that i even tried online friends so i wouldn’t have to like talk to them everyday i guess, but even that didn’t work and its so frustrating because i dont want to push people away, hurt them etc. and i dont even know what it is, like is it because i js dont like people?? or is it because im a bad person, i dont know but i just cant quit it, im not exaggerating either i have 0 friends.