I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I feel like im stunted in some way. I always envision a better, put-together version of me and i know what i can do to get better I just…don’t do it. I used to blame my small town for suffocating me and so I moved across the world for college, imagining big city independent living would fix everything but idk im still the same person i cant escape myself even if i escape that stupid town. I still feel the pressure to get a job because despite everything being paid for by my parents i know its tough on them. But I’ve never had a job, and im unable to freaking leave my comfort zone and get my first job i feel so inept. And. im lonely. my social skills suck, i have good friends but still feel lonely and i cant easily make new ones. I want to reach out to people i know but i just CANT it makes me cringe talking about my feelings. i can’t even cry in front of others, even if i know they wont judge. felt extra horrid today so here i am i guess