I just fucking hate that no matter what I or my family tries, we aren't in any way escaping this shithole of debt, instability and homelessness. I feel guilty all the time for having to live in my grandparents' house for their money, mostly because I have been jobless for a long time and just got a job, but the money I will get will go to pay for something that's not my fault, yet is on my shoulders to pay off. I can't finish my degree because of having zero money to pay for tuition, my mom and my siblings left our abusive household not having any safety net because it was dragging us deeper into debts and stuff. I know how ridiculous it may sound. "Just work!" you may think, and that's what I'm trying to do, but even the money I earn isn't enough to sustain so many people. I feel so unlucky and frustrated. The doors close even before I am able to knock. Why.