the pressure is building up everyday, i already don’t eat enough, sleep enough, i don’t even talk to anyone unless it’s for school, and whenever i can even scrap together enough motivation to work on something, it’s never enough, even if i’m constantly trying to make effort after being in a period of time where i didn’t want to do anything, i feel so useless and every time someone tries to lecture me about it, i feel even worse than before, i’ve gotten so used to telling people that i’m okay and suppressing my feelings to the point where i don’t know who i can even talk to anymore about how i really feel. i wish it was all over, but i don’t even have the guts to do it because i feel guilty for the people around me, and i feel selfish.
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