I hate being on this planet but I can’t leave because my family will miss me but at the same time I want to leave because they don’t get me, they hurt me. I feel like I’m only allowed to feel happy or neutral around them and it’s so draining. If I’m sad then they’re worried but if I’m mad or they do something to piss me off then it’s my fault. If I try to word my frustrations with them or reason about something then nope still my fault. I can’t leave either because of my dog, I also can’t leave because of my friends. One is relying on me to be their roommate once we get jobs and the other only feels comfortable venting with me. If I kill myself I’m worried that they will too or that they’ll feel guilty and I don’t want that. I just really don’t want to be here anymore though. I wish I had someone to tell this to, I’d tell my friends but I don’t want them to worry about me. They have enough on their plates. I feel so alone. :’-(