i am frustrated. mad. disappointed. sad. and i feel like crying but i do not want to. my chest is heavy. and the person who is causing this is my husband. he is insensitive and in so many ways unreceptive. he seems to think that what he does is what's right and what's to be followed. he refuses to listen, much more willing to change. i have been adjusting in this marriage and now that i am pregnant, alot of things are not easy for me and he does not seem to make it any lighter even though he says he does. he thinks cooking is enough but it's more than that. there are many unspoken heavy emotions and needs I face, some he probably sees, yet most he ignores. it really is heart breaking because i cannot tell these to him. i am non-confrontational and to me, he is not a listener so most often i would hide away my pain. i guess what makes this painful for me is the expectation i have - that he ought to be the leader of this family (which he thinks he is) and yet he does not act like one.