This is honestly stupid and I hate that it's put such a downer on the evening. I just got back from spending time with my partner's family. Should be a fun time, right? And yet I've found myself feeling like utter shite about myself and my body cuz I've spent the entire evening comparing my body to both his mum and sister's. For context, he's quite a skinny lad, and the rest of his family is similar in what I would consider slim, healthy and active. I, on the other hand, come from a family that has always been on the 'beefier' side, with generational depression and anger likely passed down since god knows when. I struggle with my mental health, that's no big surprise. I know it's stupid to compare myself to others; I try my damn hardest not to do it, but it still happens. It just sucks that I feel like such a detestably ugly, unhealthy, undesirable and mentally fucked individual. I love my partner to absolute pieces, and him with me. And yet, I can't stop thinking 'why?' or 'how?'.