no matter how much i undereat, and how much weight ive lost im never satisified, ive convinced myself that if become this certain weight then i'd stop and finally feel some sort of satisfaction but honestly I haven't really felt satisfaction in a while. And just gaining a kg makes me feel like i wanna idk starve? Get to that small weight? But my body only weakens more its been like 3 months since my last period i literally cant shit without strong asf laxatives, i weigh myself like over 10 times a day, but hey atleast im 45kg now but no I gained a kg, so now i'm just... Idk- Im jst breaking down every single day and i iwsh i never started dieting but it is what it is
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