I feel like a shitty person because I want to be loved but I barely feel anything and get bored of people quickly. I miss the times when I was empathetic and would not just jerk off or smth to keep people aroud me safe from myself. Didn't notice how I walked from the victim to the potential abuser. There is a human who sees me as shitty as I am, I need him, but he does not need me. And again, I understand him. Im getting bored. There is another human that I text when I need comfort. He is in love with me and I say stuff back to him but I dont feel anything. He keeps annoying me and making me feel disgusted even though he is a good person. He is also autistic so I feel like im taking advantage of him. He knows I dont feel emotions much but keeps on trying. I dont want to talk to anybody now. And want to scream at him for being stupid and emotionally unintelligent and unable to keep up a deep dialogue. I dont. I feel scared of what u have become.