I’m so sorry. To all my friends. To all my family. To my dog. To the experiences i won’t live to see. To the tears i won’t cry. To the smiles I won’t beam. I tried my best. I did. It wasn’t enough. Im losing against myself. I really fucking tried my absolute fucking hardest. I hope when people see Im gone, they know I really tried my best to stay alive. I want to attempt again. I don’t know if I’ll do it today, but soon. Ive made myself a promise-I won’t live to see eighteen. I don’t deserve it. I don’t want to live. Im so sorry. I wish I could’ve been a better daughter, a better friend. Im sorry Im losing. Im sorry Im disappointing. Im sorry I wasn’t the girl you deserved. Im sorry I could never finish collage. Im sorry I couldn’t move to the city like I wanted to. Im so so so so sorry. I’m sorry Im so pathetic at fourteen. Im so sorry. Im so sorry.