MY MOTHER DOESN'T UNDERSTAND ME, NEVER ONCE DID SHE DO. SO DON'T SHE BLAME ME WHEN I BECAME THE PERSON I AM TODAY - HARD LIKE A STONE, 'EMOTIONLESS', JUST ACCEPTING AND TOLERATING EVERYTHING, NOT EVEN ONCE DID I CRIED TO HER, NOT EVEN ONCE DID I OPENED UP TO HER BECAUSE SHE WOULD NOT UNDERSTAND IT ANYWAY. AND NOW I FELT WHAT MY FATHER EXPERIENCED - HE TOLERATED THE PAIN OF HIS SICKNESS, NEVER OPENED UP TO MY MOTHER HOW MUCH PAIN HE'S EXPERIENCING UNTIL HE IS SUDDENLY RUSHED INTO THE HOSPITAL. - SINCE THEN MY AUNT, UNCLE, AND GRANDMA ADVICES US THAT WHATEVER WE FEEL WE MUST OPEN UP OR SAY IT IMMEDIATELY. BUT WITH MY MOTHER? NAHH... I'D RATHER SUFFER ALONE THAN OPEN UP, IF IT MEANS AVOIDING MY PAIN TO GROW.
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