just got “left on opened” (rejected) by a girl I wanted to ask to homecoming. i really don’t know how to act. I see her at school tmrw and i certainly thought she liked me. god i just wanna cease to exist right now. in september 2024 i was raped by my guy best friend (im a guy as well) and it tanked my confidence so badly. after I was raped, I spiraled into lust, pornography, and self-hatred. i really just wanna be loved and respected. i just wanna feel attractive again. i just want someone to hold me. i never really wanted sex or intimacy or anything. i just wanted someone to need me. and now im going to be ridiculed tomorrow. wish me luck or pray for me. im just in a terrible state right now. thank you to anyone who bothered reading this.