I hate life. Not all the time, but like 90 percent of the time. I don't want to die, but I dont want to live. I dont like to eat, but my family makes calories a big deal. I hate my body. Theres a bridge by my school and sometimes I wonder if it would be worth it to jump. The only times I feel ok are when I'm with freinds. All my coping methods are not good. I self harm in small wways so nobody notices. I pick off my skin and jab myself with my nail. I've attempted using a bookmark to cut myself, but it dident work. Im scared for my future. Im just trying to live, but my parents make it hard sometimes, I know they dont mean it. BUT IT STILL HURTS!!!!!!!!! I have a surgery on friday.
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