My life is in ruins. I cut off my friend, thinking I was the good guy, and then was a jerk to her after. Why the hell did I do that?! Also, my family fights over and over and it’s leaving me frazzled and spiraling, but I don’t cry or yell. I guess I’m just emotionless during those times. I just broke up with my girlfriend. We’re still friends, but everything is so awkward now, even with our other friends. I have so much stuff at school. I have drama club almost every day. I’m tired! I don’t have any time where I can treat myself or take a nap. I hate how I look, and how I’ve been acting lately. I had my first suicidal thought the other night and it scared me. Tho of course I’d never go through with it. I’m too much of a scaredy cat to do so. I don’t know how to deal with everything. I’m at such a low. I’m kind of depressed but I’d never show it. I’m always there for everyone, just never myself. My feelings and mental health are like a tornado right now. No way to tame it. What do I do?