My mother is a narcissist. I have mental heath issues (hallucinations, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, dissociation, trauma, etc). She's kept me from seeking help for years. My family knows about my MH and never even bother to ask how I'm doing. Last year, I wanted to jump off a roof during our summer vacation. My mom stopped me. My brother simply said "just keep living" as a response to me being suicidal. This hurt me so much. He was the reason I wanted to die that day and he tells me to keep living?! He's bullied me so much that I can't bear to look at myself in the mirror. No one ever cares about me. People vent to me all the time. I don't trust anyone to not judge me. I don't feel loved, safe or unjudged. My sister has narcissistic traits, my brother has bad anger issues, my eldest brother is cruel and selfish, my little sister is starting to develop narcissistic traits. I feel so different. All my siblings changed due to our toxic parents. I'm the scapegoat.