I have realised I am depressed. I was really poorly last year and was contemplating suicide. I went onto tablets. They calmed the thoughts down but I got fat. So I stopped the tablets. Now I am fat and also still depressed. I am not going to kill myself but I am depressed. My house is a mess, I am too tired to do anything and worse still I am proper sick at the moment. I feel appalling. I have had to stop work.