I don't deserve cats. When I was a, kid, before all this burnt out shit started, I have this white cat, and I adore her so much. She's also very clingy to me, I took care of her with my parents ever since she was a kitten, and now. 6 years later, When she meows asking for attention, I get annoyed and felt tired to play with her and decided to pick up another cat so she'd have friend, but she didn't like him. Never for 1 year now. She never gave up trying to ask for my attention, but i give her sum if I'm not THAT tired. And her water bowl now is dirty. I only cleaned it once a month. And I only give her dry cat food. But sometimes I do give her treats, and today I decided to clear her litter box after 9 months and guess what I found guys??? Surprise surprise it's maggots!!! 😂😂 IT'S COVERED EVERYWHERE IN HER SHIT BOX. Im so fucking tired. Considering my mental health Ik I should give her to someone to take care of her. But It's so hard knowing how attached she is to me and I'm to her.