I remember allways being different. On my own with my own things. More alone even if others were there. That kid who allways ended up away from others. As an kid it wasnt so big deal because now n then still there were connections with others. But during time things got worse. Years went by even my health started to detoriate and getting worse. Oneday i noticed i cant keep up with others anymore. The gap between me and others grew bigger. Me, my mind and my health got so used to being alone i cant join or keep up with people anymore. I have no longer things to even speak about with others. I have only my imagination and thoughts. No life what to talk about. Oneday i noticed there is no gap between me and people. It is now a pit i cannot cross anymore. I feel pain daily, i hear silence and i am with my mind. I lernt to do things on my own away from people and it became my curse. I am tierd.