I’m just so painfully average it hurts. All my friends are getting special awards and top of their class and have something that makes them special and I just add fucking nothing to the world and I hate it so much it’s like I’m just waiting for my turn but whenever I try to do something like try out for the school play I just fail and I was actually hopeful I could be special for once but no I’m just a failure and I’m so pathetic that I cried over something 50 other people didn’t get and I can’t do anything right I can’t comfort people I can’t do my work right I’m a horrible friend I’m not attractive at all I’m selfish my parents would be a lot more happy without me because I treat them horribly and I’m such a brat to them and I’m just done