I sometimes wish I didn’t date two of my ex male boyfriends. They’re both shitty people. My first male ex bf left me because I almost went through with my “plan” and he left me because of that. I though choose to leave my newest ex bf ( a man) I left him because he’d wait 5/7 days to text me back. He also guilt tripped me and manipulated me into many things. I loved him so much, I did everything for him, and when I wanted tgat same emotion? Nothing from him. So pathetic. So FUCKING pathetic omg. I wrote 20 things I loved about him and he said “Awh thank u hun” … i thought he’d write 20 things about me too but I guess not. It’s funny isn’t it. I’ve always wanted to be loved so badly, but every relationship I’ve been in fails. Maybe it’s me. I want someone who loves me loudly, who shows me off, who isn’t afraid to be shown off with in public. To be loved and cared for. I don’t even want the sexual experience I just want someone to love me for me yk? Just me only and not for my body.