I feel like im too hard to love. Everyday I wake up alone and wishing I continued to settle for my ex boyfriend because at least there was someone saved in my phone as baby. I sometimes think of the life I gave up when I broke things off with him. Would I have been happy? No, but its better than the rat race of hook ups and putting myself out there just to receive a block or two. I find these guys and all I want is their attention and for them to want mine. Then I wake up the next day to see they are ignoring me or completely get rid of me. I know I try too hard, but its just because I’ve gone all my life without a rock. I just wanna be loved. I just wanna feel like I matter in someone’s life but it never happens, because its a cycle I never seem to break