Ok, so, pretty much everything in life just feels like its going down a sink. As if theres no stop and my energy is just always draining. Theres ups and downs in the stream but no matter what, it always ends going down that hole and never filling up, only losing whats there for a moment. I've tried to look at the positive side but all of those negatives are eating away at me! I cant stop this sense of dread that creeps in the moment things go silent but I feel annoying whenever I try to fill that silent void. I have one close friend but I cant be truly honest with him because thats where I started my positive outlook on life. I jist want someone I can tell everything im truly thinking but I cant even do that with myself. I lie to myself all the time and in constant denial on how I really feel because I just want to seem happy and normal but its hard.