My life has been like an swallow water without any color. I always keep living just to do what other expected me to do that leads me to be confused of who really I am. I forgot my roots, my memories, my self, and everything. I tend to just live because I was living. I can't even know what I like or what I want to do. I just go with the cycle of house and school. Whenever I am around my friends and classmates, I feel like they are being intimidated by me as they go silent when I am around with them and they are opposite with the others. Like I get why they are like that towards me because I am so shy, quiet, does not have sense of humor, and serious. I don't know why I became like this, I am so full of insecurities and fear. I just wanted to talk to someone, to share my thoughts without fear, and just live normally like how others live. I am so empty. I feel like a robot because I am just always known to be ask for something or rant problems but not someone who they want to talk.