Im so tired of being alone. Every time I think Ive made a friend they turn out not to be. Since childhood I have overextended myself to make others comfortable. Especially with other races, its like they like to take from black peoples mannerisms and AAVE but don't actually give a fuck about black people. I told who I thought was a friend that I wouldn't be going to target due to the backlash of them being racist. They still go almost every night, MIND YOU they are also minorities. Then come to work and say things like "on God", "On everything". So its cool to them to use it but cant advocate. Being extremely fake and acting like you were a friend when you really weren't. I should have known when we went to six flags and she basically didn't wanna let me use the meal voucher, soooo everyone else's meal was free expect mine. As we were eating they kept making remarks about how me the only blk person there had to pay and no one else did. I live by myself 1,000 miles away from my mom.