growing up a bigger girl has stripped me from experiences that i’m barely realizing i’ve held myself back on. the insecurities eat at me. so i’ve kept myself from going out, going to prom, and of course, a relationship. having to be exposed to a man like that and wondering if my body looks disgusting to him. if i’m desirable. sometimes i wonder if i have an eating disorder. but it’s come to the point where i yearn for a relationship, a real one. doesn’t even have to be romantic. just someone who wants to know me, not some guy on the internet who’s horny. i want the feel of coming home and being held after a stressful day, having my hair played with. :(
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