i’ve never fucked up my life so badly before and i don’t feel real most days because i can’t believe that all of this is actually happening. i know im young, and by “my life” im talking about my academics. and that’s really not much and grades don’t define you or whatever, but im young and grades are all i have to represent myself. school takes up most of my time. this is my whole life and my grades are slipping out of my hands because of my horrible depression, i don’t do extracurriculars because im so tired and i know i wont be able to put my heart into it, and i feel so anxious thinking about college because i have such high expectations for myself even now i think id kill myself if i don’t get into some prestigious school. i just want some rest. but school doesn’t wait for you because you feel a little depressed.