I haven’t been feeling good about my future lately. College is approaching fast and I feel stuck. I don’t want to go on. It seems like a cowardly way out of responsibility but I’ve had the idea in my head for a while now. Either disappear or die before I turn 30. I’m too pussy to actually try and kms but lately it’s been a constant thought I’ve actually considered. I know I’ll never go through with it, I’ll tough it out. Just like everything else. But who knows maybe some magical force will make my future less scary. I’ll keep telling myself things will get better but it’s hard to believe it will after everything I’ve done or haven’t done.
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