I feel guilty all of the time. I was born guilty. I just sat in my car and sobbed because I found out my councilor messed up my college schedule and now I have to cram to graduate on time. I know deep down this is my fault. It has to be right? Ive done something wrong, something irreparably so, and Im being punished. Bad things keep happening to me because I deserve it. But also maybe I don’t? I don’t know why I can’t live or do anything without feeling bad. Why I feel as if I deserve some sort of punishment. I couldn’t tell you what makes me feel so wrong, I just feel wrong. I am wrong, and I am bad, and it’s all too much to bare. I don’t want to be wrong and bad and I try every day to be kind, and to work hard and people love me, and they tell me they miss me and I wonder why because I feel expendable and bad. Im sorry to whoever is reading this i just had to say something before it dribbled out of my mouth In front of someone I knew, and ruined the way they see me.