“ Something deep inside of me tells me that you're not better now And I'm sorry that I couldn't help But I'm so glad I made it out And I'm crying on my mama's floor Why don't you want this anymore? And I'm craving you to change for me You're saying "I hear you", and "I love you", "My heart it hurts for you" And "I just cannot give you what you need" Am I too much? am i enough 'Cause you said you wouldn't give up Now I'm numb on my knees Praying to God you talk to me Wondering what it takes for you to stay Off my mind and far out of my bloodstream” I’m sobbing so hard right now. I’ve known this song for so long, but it’s just hitting now. I had an abusive brother that I used to love so much. He tried hurting us really bad a couple times, then left. No apology. He talks to my mom, saying he’s better. That he’s ’found Christ’. Yeah, right. I haven’t slept in a while, which makes school hard. Now it’s 11:50 PM and I’ve been sobbing for an hour.