I HAVEEE A FUCKKKKIIING EXAMMMMM exam week is starting guess who is about to feel useless, incompetent and fucking pathetic. im not beautiful not smart not particularly talented i exist i occupy space consume resources AND EXIST!! as a liability. whats keeping me alive? I CANT KILL MYSELF no matter how many slashes my thighs take. i just dont seem to die. no matter how much weight i try to lose, i dont seem skinny enough. no matter how much i study or put efforts. i just can NEVER reach 90. no no no. im incapable of it i feel horrible i want to DIE so badly i am sad and frustrated. i am useless and rotten i want to physically rot with worms in my eyes and no longer exist but oh well. lets just sleep! and hope tomorrow is better. it wont be, someone passed away. someone not particularly close to me. but close enough for the entire family to be in this depressed sultry mood. OH yeah. i have an exam pretty darn important not life changing but heavy. and guess what i want to finish s5