I just feel a bit meh really like every day has been like oh well that happened and I've gotten in this loop of like sort of coming home from school, not doing anything, doomscrolling, feeling bad for not doing anything with my parents, feeling bad becuase it was an unproductive evening and I've just come back from my summer time off. also my sister has sort of been in the spotlight for 3 years doing her GCSEs and starting sixth form and its like I'm not neglected just like oh how was school? good. Anyway like that Jeremy clarkson meme. idk I could just be being silly but I feel meh.