I don't know how many days this progress of mine has been but now I don't want to check up on you anymore. I don't want to talk to you or see you again. I want to move on and heal. It's not bad to look back at what we had but I can't move forward if I just stay there. I still care about you but not enough to keep checking on your life. I can't control what you want to do but i pray that you made a right decision everyday. I hope ur okay and I always say that. You probably don't know I have so many words I want to tell you but I'll just put them here so the weight eases a bit. It doesn't really matter if you know or not that I make words for you but yun i hope i can fully healed na one day and never look back for you again. I'm still thankful for everything we shared before and I don't have anything left to apologize for because I already did, your mom was still there when I did it.