Got broken up a month ago and some days I’m really happy and other days I struggle to get out of bed and just cry. I’m so confused on why he ended things I tried so hard to be a good girlfriend and gave him so many chances even when he didn’t deserve them. But after he left me I applied to a bunch of jobs and had a bunch of emails for interviews and these are good paying jobs but I ignored them and couldn’t manage to even reply because I feel so lazy and unmotivated to do anything. Ugh recently I’ve been wanting to kill myself just to avoid everything. Being an adult and having to get my own place and getting a good career. Everything is stressing me out and I’m trying to take it one day at a time but I feel like everyone is already ahead of me and doing better. I don’t know how to get a good job now and afford to live on my own. I don’t even know what I want to do career wise. Anyways life fucking sucks along with this economy.