I feel disgusting I can’t do basic human hygiene without forcing myself even eating is hard to do I get so drained and I constantly look up burn out and depression trying to figure out why but idk I’ve also got body dysmorphia which is shit and I hide all of this from people like in school I smile I’m energetic but inside I’m trying so not to break down and vent bc I don’t wanna seem broken and need to be fixed I would hate being treated differently just because of something I don’t know and like I want to get help but my parents don’t know and they’ll say it’s not that bad and ur not like that it’s all the internet I feel helpless and really close to relapsing but I don’t wanna disappoint anyone 💔😭🧷