I wanna know if my friends truly like me or not. I don't feel like I have a strong connection to them like they have with the others and it sucks bc I was one of the first people in the friendgroup. I know they care just not as much as the others. Never their first choice. And I have so many regrets bc of it bc I feel like I'm just behind on everything now. I want to have someone to have a connection that feels warm and genuine. Will I ever get that?