I work for an education company. My ex also works for them. I have so so many mixed feelings. He just randomly ghosted me one day(bleh), but he cares so deeply about this company, which I truly still really love about him. We both have a group of students ("homerooms"), and there's like 20 of these groups. We have a very unserious program competition which involves jeopardy, lip synch battles, etc, and right now his group is in first place. And my group is in 10th place. I know it's about the students and not us, but I just hate that he's winning. I feel like the program and our boss favors him, even though I work harder for my students. I'm happy that he's passionate about it and it really is for a good cause, just makes me angry that I have to see him so often. But also, maybe I'm just scared. Scared I'm not good enough for our program or for a partner. I wish I could just move on with my life, but he just looks like he's winning and I feel like I'm losing.