Hi, I am Kiahna and I am 18. I'm unsure if anyone will read this, if so I think it's only fair to introduce myself. I have been struggling with my mental health since I was 8, may be younger. I was diagnosed with BPD this year, however I am believing this to be AUDHD/Autism. I struggle to do anything any normal person could. I feel things so strongly to the point I just want to hurt myself and it can be good or bad things that "trigger" it. I am unsure if it will ever truly get better. Nobody understands why I am the way that I am. I can barely talk to people because my mind just blanks. I only work two days a week and can barely even do that. I dropped out because I was heavily bullied in highschool but I cant even finish my GED because its math and I have no support. I feel like I am such a failure and that I will get nowhere in life and I will end up like my dad who is alone and always high. I don't want to use a substance to feel better but what do I do when I never feel better.