I feel so sad for so many reasons. First of all, my parents are separated and I live with my mom. My dad is crazy and I don't talk to him anymore. He was abusive physically before my mom called the cops on him when I was 7. I still remember everything. I used to talk to him before this year and he was so always so mean. He made me feel so bad about myself and body shamed me. I still feel like a horrible daughter because he is still my dad and I hate him so much. Even my mom brings up about how I shouldn't be so hard on him and that is loves me and I makes me feel even worse. Today he came and banged on our door and I heard his voice. It made my heart start beating so fast and I just ran upstairs. I can't bear to see his face. He did this to himself. He is the parent and I shouldn't have tried so hard to build a relationship with him.